Old Notes

 I haven't forged a career. I am stuck on either choosing Computer Engineering, Software Programming or Mechanical Engineering. The loop never ends, but however it is only but a few days left until it is decided. I haven't won any awards. I never had the confidence to get into a competition; I despise finding other people whom I never met. Worse yet, I was under the fear that I would be the most pathetic member of the team, just because I can't work around other trades, other than problem-solving. I haven't attained a position of leadership. Not that type of person, really. But true to you, I could have been well-known if I tried, but I didn't. I haven't created anything profound. I have done a few quite abit. Mostly to myself. During college, I was a total wimp, but when I went around searching for advice on the internet, I can never see myself the same way, ever again. It was a baptism by fire, from being a curious little kid, to an independent but poor lad. [...

 When sketching or studying, limit your deadline down to the day it was being drawn. Do not extend them past, even if it only took an hour in that time. Any regular projects such as commissions, miniprojects or illustrations, can take any amount of time.

 A lot of writing and on-the-wall ideas are required to properly execute such big projects. I certainly have done myself quite a lot of planning, especially the Northern Project, requiring proposals and trial and errors. The workload for projects such as the NC collection wasn't as complex, you only need to give an idea for what class of ships to build, and then making an approximate impression of that they are, and after that, investment in time is required as work starts. The worldbuilding project also does the same. With the help of referencing from game lores, ideas are freely written, then refined with several redrafts or change of texts. However, things like self-development, such as practice and discipline, will require a much thicker skin to deal with, as encounters toward your goal can be very unpredictable. What was difficult to understand, is that generalized plans can only work with a certain type of people, who have previously had an experience with their work ethic, s...

 Every so often would it be difficult to arrange yourself into doing something, and then dreading yourself, knowing that it would take place again and again. This may be the root of laziness Perhaps there simply isn't a need to consider a routine, but a way to live in the moment and arrange an activity before doing it. Such is like the difference between trying to clean your room, and then learning to draw; they both can be seen as a persistent thing, but a decision has to be made into prioritizing passion for either. As we see here, there can only be one or two for passion, but many for small gigs, so perhaps all those thoughts about the future need not be for passion or persistence, but a matter of getting it done for a small side activity for once in that moment.